CONTRADICTORY ANNOTATION I

This one time, I was making a fuss about my struggles when I felt weak and vulnerable. They said, “It is okay! You are getting prepared for life!” But I wonder, if I am already struggling to get the life of my dreams, if I am already putting my days and nights to fulfill what I dreamt of, if I am already paying a cost to live up to my own dreams, why would I have to suffer in the future too? I mean, if what they say is true, it would mean that my current struggle is just a warm-up for the whole workout session I have to go through later in life, even after fulfilling my dreams.

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In the name of "Zindagi," if it is so, it's UNFAIR!

I mean, why on earth am I even sticking to this road where first I am being told that “Bas itne hi din ka struggle hai, fir aage life makkhan hai,” and later they come and say, “Koi baat nahi isi bahaane zindagi aage ke liye tayyar kar rahi hai!”

What kind of contradictory annotations are those?

It doesn't even make an iota of sense to me. I opted for giving up the moh-maya, not signing up for the whole bunch of struggling life roller-coasters. I did it because I was told that this struggle is momentary and it will pay off well. But now, all of a sudden, when I thought I was midway beating all those struggling days, where I had to keep a hush-hush to my urges and was sprinting from where the target seemed closer and felt like reaching the end at some point in time, they tell me that it’s a mirage and the struggles are a never-ending phenomenon.

Why was I not informed about this earlier when I was at the crossroad? I could have enjoyed my days before the striking of Zindagi waala struggles, at least.

How can they state both sides of the coin so convincingly? Is it THAT obvious?

Is that what you grown-ups do, let us suffer because you suffered too? Is it a conspiracy? It should be like, “Choose an easy path bro, jao kahin se bhi struggle will stick around you khud hi, tumhe chipkake ghoomne ki jarurat nahi hai because it will find you, tab tak JEE LO.”

Is this a conundrum?

Or do you feel the same about this infinity loop of “Karo struggle, paao struggle” scam?